Post by elphie16 on Feb 16, 2010 12:08:09 GMT -8
First of all, I would appreciate it if what's written here remains here and not be taken over to the cbox or to other threads. Please, guys, that includes any comments you leave here, okay? I don't want this spiraling out of control because of something that may be being blown way out of proportion here. Thanx.
Sometimes I don't even know why I come to this place anymore. More often than not I wind up feeling depressed, ignored, unliked, and unwanted. I'm sick of this site working like a high school, with the "popular" kids and then everyone else. It makes me wish I weren't so addicted to this place so I could just leave and not have a problem with it. I come online and am virtually ignored. Sure I'll get a hello, or even offers to role play but the minute someone comes on who's a bit more likeable than I am, I'm left in the dust, being annoying and begging for role play. I understand that, for whatever reason, I'm not a popular person. I come online and get little hearts and hugs, but I'm beginning to think those mean jack. Just another way to make me feel like I'm wanted here before I'm left alone and ignored. The same thing happened to me in high school. I had aquaintences who would say hi to me and hang out with me, but only when someone they didn't like better was around. I had a close group of friends with whom I got along with, but when one of them didn't show up, I was depressed because no one else wanted to be around me. I guess I don't understand why I'm not likeable or popular. I'm a nice enough person! But I understand that it's just the way I am apparently, so I should just get over it. I don't have charisma or charm. Fine. That doesn't mean I deserve to be ignored and forgotten.
I come on and wind up role playing with the same two or three people every day because no one else will accept my offers of role play. I offer to role play with someone, and they're not in the mood to play the character I want, or for a certain type of role play. Because people don't seem to want their characters to advance or develop, it makes it so that my characters can't advance or develop. Not stimulating role play, I'm sorry. I just don't find that interesting. Being dropped or forgotten by someone I'm role playing with is another big thing. Often I feel annoying because I have to constantly remind someone that they're playing a character with me, but keep forgetting because they're playing another character with someone else they just seem to like better. Or my personal favorite, playing an AU role play that's apparently a bit more interesting than my characters. As much as I dislike being turned down for role play, I hate being ignored or forgotten even more. If you don't want to role play a certain character, fine. Be that way. But don't say "sure!" and then just leave me hanging. I'm not a mean person. I don't bite! You can tell me you don't want to play a character and I won't scream at ya! I may be a bit...sad, but I'm not going to kill over it. Truth of the matter is, I love role playing with everyone here and just feel a little left out when people don't give me that chance.
I hope that saying these things will help to change the Source a bit so that everyone feels welcome instead of ignored. I want to be able to have us accept new members who feel like they can come online and talk away without being pushed out by the older or more popular members, which is what happens alot lately. Just so everyone knows just how bad it's gotten for me, I've been a member here since before it was opened for role play, and I STILL feel like I'm not wanted or needed on the cbox. I STILL feel left out and ignored. I STILL feel like the annoying noob who keeps bugging people for role play. It has gotten that bad. If this rant changes nothing...well then I guess this place never had a hope of changing and I'll just have to deal with it and assume that for whatever reason, I'm the problem. If it gets members angry at me, well that wasn't the intent and I'm sorry to hurt feelings, but I needed to say SOMETHING before I went off on someone in the cbox for what would have appeared to be no reason. I come online to escape from this kind of thing. I don't need to come online just to be reminded that no one truely likes me for who I am. It's not a warning, not a threat. This is simply to let people know that, wether you mean to or not, people are ignoring others and making them feel bad. People on this site are pushing others away to talk to more "popular" members. People are feeling upset and sad because they feel like they don't belong here. We will lose members one by one if this keeps up. If I weren't so hooked on the role play, and if it weren't for two or three of my close friends here, I would be gone by now. I love the movie, I love my characters, and I love this site. I just want to feel like the site loves me back.
Thanx, and I'm sorry once again.
~Elphie
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Sometimes I don't even know why I come to this place anymore. More often than not I wind up feeling depressed, ignored, unliked, and unwanted. I'm sick of this site working like a high school, with the "popular" kids and then everyone else. It makes me wish I weren't so addicted to this place so I could just leave and not have a problem with it. I come online and am virtually ignored. Sure I'll get a hello, or even offers to role play but the minute someone comes on who's a bit more likeable than I am, I'm left in the dust, being annoying and begging for role play. I understand that, for whatever reason, I'm not a popular person. I come online and get little hearts and hugs, but I'm beginning to think those mean jack. Just another way to make me feel like I'm wanted here before I'm left alone and ignored. The same thing happened to me in high school. I had aquaintences who would say hi to me and hang out with me, but only when someone they didn't like better was around. I had a close group of friends with whom I got along with, but when one of them didn't show up, I was depressed because no one else wanted to be around me. I guess I don't understand why I'm not likeable or popular. I'm a nice enough person! But I understand that it's just the way I am apparently, so I should just get over it. I don't have charisma or charm. Fine. That doesn't mean I deserve to be ignored and forgotten.
I come on and wind up role playing with the same two or three people every day because no one else will accept my offers of role play. I offer to role play with someone, and they're not in the mood to play the character I want, or for a certain type of role play. Because people don't seem to want their characters to advance or develop, it makes it so that my characters can't advance or develop. Not stimulating role play, I'm sorry. I just don't find that interesting. Being dropped or forgotten by someone I'm role playing with is another big thing. Often I feel annoying because I have to constantly remind someone that they're playing a character with me, but keep forgetting because they're playing another character with someone else they just seem to like better. Or my personal favorite, playing an AU role play that's apparently a bit more interesting than my characters. As much as I dislike being turned down for role play, I hate being ignored or forgotten even more. If you don't want to role play a certain character, fine. Be that way. But don't say "sure!" and then just leave me hanging. I'm not a mean person. I don't bite! You can tell me you don't want to play a character and I won't scream at ya! I may be a bit...sad, but I'm not going to kill over it. Truth of the matter is, I love role playing with everyone here and just feel a little left out when people don't give me that chance.
I hope that saying these things will help to change the Source a bit so that everyone feels welcome instead of ignored. I want to be able to have us accept new members who feel like they can come online and talk away without being pushed out by the older or more popular members, which is what happens alot lately. Just so everyone knows just how bad it's gotten for me, I've been a member here since before it was opened for role play, and I STILL feel like I'm not wanted or needed on the cbox. I STILL feel left out and ignored. I STILL feel like the annoying noob who keeps bugging people for role play. It has gotten that bad. If this rant changes nothing...well then I guess this place never had a hope of changing and I'll just have to deal with it and assume that for whatever reason, I'm the problem. If it gets members angry at me, well that wasn't the intent and I'm sorry to hurt feelings, but I needed to say SOMETHING before I went off on someone in the cbox for what would have appeared to be no reason. I come online to escape from this kind of thing. I don't need to come online just to be reminded that no one truely likes me for who I am. It's not a warning, not a threat. This is simply to let people know that, wether you mean to or not, people are ignoring others and making them feel bad. People on this site are pushing others away to talk to more "popular" members. People are feeling upset and sad because they feel like they don't belong here. We will lose members one by one if this keeps up. If I weren't so hooked on the role play, and if it weren't for two or three of my close friends here, I would be gone by now. I love the movie, I love my characters, and I love this site. I just want to feel like the site loves me back.
Thanx, and I'm sorry once again.
~Elphie